I have learned a lot about myself during these last few months of writing for the Tarot site here at Bellaonline. As I wrote the articles I found myself identifying with the characters I was creating. My life seemed to be correlating in a direct parallel line with what was going on in their lives.

As I wrote about the Fool's journey I was in the midst of my own life upheaval. I had moved from Connecticut to Maine in the middle of January and, like the Fool, I was starting life anew.

I moved in with my daughter and her family. It snowed pretty steadily for the next month. My car died, I couldn't find a job, and I was living totally off the generosity of my family. I was afraid, frustrated and at a loss as to where to go or what to do.

As the Fool progressed on his journey, I did too. Spring came and I found a job, got my car fixed and paid off my overdue bills. I found new friends and life was good.

But, much like the Fool's journey, my own journey hit a huge obstacle. My daughter's landlord decided to put the house that she was renting on the market. We had 60 days to find a new place to live.

My daughter and her family found a small house and I sublet a small room in an apartment nearby. Five months later I have decided to move into my own apartment and live alone for the first time in the 60 years of my life.

I feel like I am on the final leg of this particular Fool's journey in my life. I have followed the Fool into the light of the Moon. Here I stand reflecting on my hopes, my dreams, and my new life on my own.

I put in an application for a cute little two room apartment today, and I have a really good feeling that my cats and I will soon be independent, single and self supporting ladies.

I think I see the light of the Star shining through the darkness. And, I intend to follow that light!

Writing about the Fool and his journey has given a new meaning to my life. I have learned about the balance of life and my own balance as a person. I know that there is always a new beginning after every ending. And, I realize that the Fool's journey is an inherent part of every life. I am not, nor have I ever been alone in my trials and tribulations. We are all connected by our actions, even if it is only by a smile or a kind word.

My journey continues as I walk through the darkness hand in hand with the Fool.